I teared up today maybe more than once over the word "no". I wasn't being told no, but rather I was saying no quite a bit. It has been a crazy week at school and in life. Ask Nathan how many mornings this week I have run out of my room with my hair reaching for the sky and wearing a panicked look on my face. It's been three so far. My alarms are either not going off or I'm not acknowledging them. I have had to be somewhere 30 minutes away at every rush hour in the day so far this week. I have an extra little body to take care of in the form of a cute puppy for a friend. I had a policy related letter to send to TN representatives. Oh yeah, and Jonathan is getting married tomorrow!
It's been crazy and I have had to say no more than once which is so unlike what I would rather be saying. My friends and family have been so gracious towards me as I have tried to accommodate my new word. They have loved me and worked around my word's context. They have encouraged me to say it even when I don't want to. Though I have also learned the opposite as well. I have learned the art and beauty of saying yes. My parent's and best friend came to visit Nathan and I for a wedding and it was blissful! I said no and yes in the same weekend and I am still kickin'! I said no to homework for once and said an absolute yes to everything that my family wanted to do. It was great! It was a perfect reminder that I should practice saying yes too. Nathan is really good at getting me to say yes even on my darkest days. It isn't an overnight thing ya know!
I am learning that by saying yes I can call upon the Lord for strength to help me do it with joy and when I say no for that to be a reward in the end. He is giving ALL the strength I am using to do everything I have to do on a weekly basis. He is watching me make mistakes and miss out, but he is also giving me new opportunities and helping me succeed. It has been quite the journey and I have loved it so far. Things are still changing all the time. Jonathan is moving to Jackson with his beautiful new wife to be a youth minister (So jealous for all those students down there)! Nathan is almost done with his first semester of school! Go Bubbaroo! Heather is teaching and exploring our hometown more than ever and I am almost half done with my biggest bucket list item yet. I can't believe it, but then again I can.
Because almost exactly a year ago I learned to say no to one thing and yes to another. God gave me strength and hope where they should lie and here I am doing the mysterious and looking to bring God the glory. Thank you Lord for being faithful and for always guiding me to live with the end in mind! Well, I am just a bamboo shoot growing a mile a minute; hope to catch you on the next mile!
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